Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Lack of Words

I have a lack of words. To many thoughts and feelings and not enough of a vocabulary to describe them. So if you are reading this be forewarned...

I am tired. I am depressed. I am confused. I am stressed. I am lost. I am happy. Well sort of. I am not sad about anything, but more a feeling of blah. I can't understand why anyone would want me around. I am cold. Physically. Even emotionally. Giving the cold shoulder to those that I shouldn't be. I just don't have the energy after work to care. I made dinner tonight for lots of people. Did I muster the energy to cook for me? No. Instead I sat on the floor and cried. Lack of patience with myself. Lack of energy to do anything else. I tried taking a nap. It didn't help. I got woken up every 12 minutes. I was cold enough not to be comfortable. Warm enough to make me itchy. So now I am just jumpy and twitchy because it was enough of a nap to "rest", but not enough to recover. My kitchen is a mess. My laundry needs to be folded and put away. My room is a nightmare. The playroom is worse. My head is spinning. And yet I sit here and write. I don't have the energy to go take a shower. I don't think I have the energy to go watch tv.

Thursday, April 5, 2007

Killing Time at Work Humor

I was goofing off at work while listening to the Gator Boy's announcement. So I was playing on a blog quiz site and took this one:


The results are below. I think they are funny. Take a wild guess why. I am not sure I would use those words to describe anyone, but I still thought it was funny... so I posted it. Go take it and see what you get and then post it as a comment. :)

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer:

Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.

Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!

Why a Cancer will love you:

You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.

A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

I think my Cancer is laid back enough to deal with my mood swings and not the other way around like the quiz says, but oh well. I can't win them all. Ok. Hopefully time to head home ( I am hungry and want a nap before church tonight - Foot Washing and ALL!)